Tuesday, September 26, 2006

weird dream

I had a very strange dream this morning.

I dreamed that I was at an event, I think it was a baseball game, doing what I normally do - trying to smooth out what I percieved as chaos - and this man came up to me, and offered me a job, doing PR and logistics for the Kansas City baseball team. The only catch was that I needed to start the next day. I knew in my dream that I was having a good hair day, and that I feeling excessively capable. I told him I would do it the next day, since I was free, to see if I liked doing the job. Why Kansas City? Well, I am going to be there in a week and a half. Otherwise, who knows.

Then the alarm went off, and I needed to get back to reality.

I had a pretty productive evening, after my board meeting, last night. After making myself something healthy to eat, I finished taking the meat off of the turkey I cooked the other day, unloaded and loaded the dishwasher, washed the hand wash dishes, cleaned the sink, and wiped down the counters. I told Eric that I had won. (He had loaded the dishwasher earlier, then watched the baseball game...).

But, he did go do the grocery shopping the other day to get himself food for lunches. I have been so bad at that lately - seems like I just don't want to find the time to do that. We do have quite a bit of food in the house right now, but it all needs to be "prepared". Hopefully I can do some cooking tonight. As of right now, the next trip I have is to Calgary on Oct 3rd. That leaves me lots of evenings free this week to catch up on things. I have also purposely not scheduled anything for myself for this weekend, so I can take the time for myself. I think I need it. I feel like the house is just rising up around me, and I can't take the mess for much longer.

So, the food for today has been:
Breakfast with my boss, I stuck to
Instant Oatmeal, plain - 2 points
Banana - 2 points
Total = 4 points

F/V = 1
Milk = 0
Water = 0

I just need to find some time to exercise today....


Monday, September 25, 2006

Woo hoo, Carrots!

Yes, I believe it has come to this.

I need to start writing down my food intake. And I can't seem to make myself do it on paper anymore.

So, today:
Breakfast: Oatmeal with some creamer - 3 points
Michelena's Lean Gourmet 5-Cheese Lasagne with extra vegetables - 6 points
Apple - 1 point
Boost, chocolate - 5 points
Soup at Hand, Chicken noodle - 2 points
Salad with 3oz turkey, 2T pine nuts, FF vinagrette - 5 points
Couscous - 3 points
Total= 25

Milk = 2
F/V = 5
Water = 6
(This will be updated as I eat food during the day)

Dinner on Friday night was lovely. I got dressed up, had a good hair day, and we went to a lovely dinner. I had the special, scallops crusted in lobster and crab with a tarragon cream sherry reduction, with blue cheese mashed potatos. We shared a bottle of wine, and a desert - white chocolate mousse. MMMMM it was devine. I took the first bite of the scallop, and I actually got goose bumps, they were so good. The waitress looked kind of suprised when I told her that, she said that was not a normal reaction, and that she would pass it along to the chef. I also guess it was the day for anniversaries... there were four other couples there for the same reason.

Saturday, I worked out at the Renaissance Festival. It was acually pretty nice until about 4, when it started raining. That cleared out a lot of people, and made it cold. I was glad that I had brought both of my capes, as my friend would have been very cold without the one I loaned her! It was kind of a long, tiring day... then I went to a housewarming party, where I ate too much of the party food: baked brie, pickle roll-ups, white chocolate, cheese and crackers, etc. I had drank enough at Fest that the beer and beverages were not attractive though...

Sunday was a nicer day at Fest. I bought a Ruth Thompson print for myself. It is "Thunderstruck" if you know her work - she does fantasy stuff, with a lot of cool dragons. I just need to figure out where I want to put it now... It was kind of sad, because it was the last weekend I was working. They are people that I don' t usually see for the rest of the year, so I swung through after my shift was done and said my farewells, and got a lot of hugs.

I did hear something about an "incident" that occured there last weekend, that just makes me sad and pissed off all at the same time. It appears that a good friend of mine was charged with 5th degree sexual assault. I don't know the whole story, but knowing my friend, that is not something that he would do. The person that told me about it (another good friend) said it was probably a case of the woman basically daring him to do something, then when he did it, she called foul. And now it appears that he's the only one that will be getting into trouble. It just pisses me off with how women can seem to do whatever they like, but when they push and inuendo without setting lines, and something happens, they set off a fire alarm. I know I have been uncomfortable out there, but I talked to the person, and we set things straight amongst ourselves. No harm, no foul. Misunderstanding occur. Deal with it without blowing it out of proportion, and without endangering the reputation of a person that can never be repaired. Even if the charges are dropped, he will always have that on his record. It makes me want to cry for him.

That being said, I have some projects I need to work on.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Happy Anniversary!

To me!

Today is my 5th wedding anniversary. It's hard to believe that it has been that long. Time sure flies when you are having fun! Eric and I have plans to go out to dinner tonight at the Lake Elmo Inn. I am looking forward to having a lovely dinner with my hubby.

And we did some dancing last night. A friend of ours is taking lessons at this studio, and has done a lot of work on their website, and they were having a free group lesson last night. I guilted him into going with me... I asked him "Don't you want to dance with your wife?" "Well yes, but I don't want to look like a fool while doing it." "That's why we need to take lessons!" So we went. It was kind of fun, but I felt like I was in junior high gym class again: "men, form a circle, women, find a partner", dance for 30 seconds, then "move to the next partner", repeat. We learned the basic steps for the Foxtrot, the Tango, Salsa, and Swing. Kind of a teaser to get you to sign up for lessons. I think it was an excellent event. Although Eric told me I was harder to dance with than some of the other women. I guess I need to learn how to follow better. And Eric needs to learn how to lead stronger. Takes practice, I guess!

It's been kind of crazy at work lately. They keep doing reorginization stuff - I am now in the HSSE department (Health, Safety, Security and Environment). They finally posted the position that has been vacant for over a year externally. They want to fill the postion by Nov 1st. I hope that they fill the position soon. I am getting really tired of dealing with all the crap. I honestly feel like a party planner - I am planning a team-building activity for one of our groups, we are going to a Wild hockey game. So I need to arrange a bus, plan a meal, arrange the meetings, etc. And we are having a senior management "walk-about" next week, and honestly, it's almost like herding cats, as I can't get people to follow directions to save my life. I called up my (new) boss the other day and instead of saying "hello Bill" I managed to start my conversation by saying "Hell Bill". At least he laughed.

That's about all I have time for at the moment.... except to say that it has been so crazy and nuts, that I just have not been exercising. I am trying to make healthy food choices, but I need to get my act together. My jeans are really starting to not fit. And I don't want to go up another size.

Le sigh.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006


So what do you do in the community that you live in?

It's been a crazy kind of couple of weeks. I feel so overwhelmed with the amount of "stuff" that I need to do, and I'm just hoping that I can get everything done that I want/need to and not disappoint anyone.

With that being said, it has also been an amazing few days. I have heard more people speak and inspire me in the last four days, it's amazing. And some of the conversations I have had have also been eye opening.

If you know me, you know that I am a member of an organization, that in all actuality, I have not talked about a lot to people that don't know me. And I have decided that needs to stop. The not sharing with people part.... I am a proud member of the Saint Paul Jaycees. We had a state convention last weekend, and it was such a great experience. Put aside the awards our chapter recieved, it was one of the most relaxing and rejuvinating times I have had in a while. (It has taken me 3 months to find time to go to the dentist...) The national Jaycee President spoke at our dinner on Saturday, and I found out something that I did not know: John F Kennedy had two chairs for guests in his oval office, one on either side of his desk. One had a crest of the place that he credited for his "formal" education: Harvard. The other chair had the crest of the place where he credited his "informal" education: the US Jaycees. Did you know that 75% of the US Presidents have been Jaycees?

Skipping forward - the Jaycees International President was at our chapter's board meeting on Monday night. He had to be one of the most interesting and dynamic people I have had the opportunity to see speak. He talked about the orgainzation, and our responsibility to our communities. He challenged us to "live the creed" (The Jaycee Creed):
We believe:
That faith in God gives us meaning and purpose,
That the Brotherhood of Man transcends the sovernty of nations
That economic justice can best be won by free men through free enterprise
That Government should be of laws rather than of men
That Earth's great treasure lies in human personality, and
That Service to Humanity is the best work of life.

What have I done lately to live this way? Started a business, got involved in the government, learned about a new culture, participated in a community event?

As a good friend said to me the other day: If you do something for yourself, it will die with you. If you volunteer, and do something for the community, it will live forever. We have to stop asking the question "What's in it for me?" and just do.

Nothing happens until someone takes action. I have decided I need to surround myself with people that are going to challenge me, and to raise me up, and inspire me.

Anyone with me?

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

When you can't think of anything else to say....

Steal from someone else:

This was taken from Kyra who said she stole it from someone else:

Checklist MemeJust bold the things you have accomplished in your life.
1. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
2. Swam with wild dolphins
3. Climbed a mountain
4. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
5. Been inside the Great Pyramid
6. Held a tarantula
7. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
8. Said "I love you" and meant it
9. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game

16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper

21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can

32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing

49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day

60. Posed nude in front of strangers
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater

66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an expert
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Eaten fugu (pufferfish)
89. Had a one-night stand
90. Gone to Thailand
91. Bought a house
92. Been in a combat zone
93. Buried one/both of your parents (stepfather)
94. Been on a cruise ship
95. Spoken more than one language fluently
96. Performed in Rocky Horror Picture Show
97. Raised children
98. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication.
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Petted a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Petted a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one important author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life

62 out of 150. 41.3% I guess I have to get out more....


Friday, September 01, 2006

I miss my husband

Even though he is not out of town... I hate being a State Fair widow. He reports to work at 6pm. His shift ends at 7am. Therefore, during the State Fair, I get to see him, maybe for a couple of minutes after he gets home, and for a little bit before he goes to work.

I got to see him when he was at work yesterday. I went to the fair, and met my parents at about 2. Called him at 3pm, to see if he was up and moving. So he headed over early to wander a bit with me. We met up around 4:30. He checked in around 6, and there was not much going on, so I got him until 7. I about cried when I had to leave. I have not seen him enough lately. Enough sap already?

So, Food yesterday. I made myself a smoothie for breakfast, then waited until I got to the fair to eat. I had a cone with honey ice cream, an ear of corn, 4 chicken strips, a beer, and a couple of sips of Eric's 1919 root beer. I was actually a little hungry when I got home... I guess the food there just was not calling to me. I don't know what it is - I passed up cotton candy, fries, cheese curds, mini-donuts, popcorn... and at home I ate some chips and dip. It makes no sense.

We were having fun doing some shopping. We put money down on a spray-on bedliner for the new truck. If we are going to haul stuff, we need it, as we already have several scratches in the bed, and I don't want them to deteriorate any.

I did get up this morning and go running. Did my 3-mile loop. 34 minutes, so not too bad. Once again, taking advice from my running magazine, I was taking it kind of easy, and worked on speeding up my cadence. Shorter steps, faster. I did 3 repeats of that. It was a completely gorgeous morning for a run. 58 degrees, sun starting to come up, I enjoyed the morning. Had I had a bit more time, I would have run further - it felt that good, and cheered me up so much. There's something to be said about all of those natural endorphins.

And the scale this morning STILL said 184.

Tonight is happy hour for my birthday. Tomorrow is a 5K race. Sunday and Monday is back out to Renaissance Festival. And next week is shaping up to be busy. I had a bunch of calls yesterday with people wanting my time next week. Good that I am needed, sucks that I go in such streaks of busy, and more relaxed. Such is the nature of this business: hurry up and wait.

I got nothin' else.

Happy Labor day weekend!