It's never easy letting go

We had to put Alex (my 15-year old cat) to sleep on Saturday morning.

After I crawled into bed Friday night, I heard her making a very strange noise, and she was laid out on the floor, whezing and unresponsive.

And she never got up. The whezing went away, finally, but she had one pupil much larger than the other, and was just limp. She was breathing, and her heart was beating, but was completely limp and unresponsive. It was about 11:00 at night

I put he into bed with me, and cuddled with her all night, and we took her to the vet in the morning, where they said that it looked like she had had a stroke. And that the best option was to put her down, which was pretty much what we expected.

But it was hard letting go. And as I wander around the house this weekend, I just start thinking about her and crying at odd moments.

Rest peacefully, my kitten. I love you.
~a