Are you pondering what I'm pondering?

I think so Brain, but if we get Sam Spade, we'll never have any puppies! (you need to read it out loud...)

Okay, so I caught an episode of Pinky and the Brain the other day. I hate to admit it, but that is one thing my ex-boyfriend got me started on that I still enjoy.

I threw out a picture of him (with me) yesterday. It was taken at my friend's wedding when I was a bridesmaid, and had resided in a small picture frame I had on one of my shelves. Facedown, so I wouldn't look at it. I'm not sure why I didn't do it a long time ago. Other than the fact that I was telling myself I kept it because of what I looked like. But I hated the dress (I actually had to change my hair color because it clashed too badly with the dress), it was pepto pink with poofy sleeves, a big bow on the but and a sweetheart neckline. I think the goal of some folks in picking out bridesmaid dresses is to get them to all look like crap, so you look better. Just a theory.

I actually googled my ex the other day. From a hotel so he wouln't know that it was actually me, 'cause he is the ultimate techno geek. It appears that he and his wife had a baby. Still kind of makes me angry - but he did tell me when we were breaking up that he could see himself having kids, just not with me. Hateful and hurtful all at the same time!

It makes me glad for what I have now.

I think that's all the pondering I have the energy for tonight. Tomorrow will be a long fucking day. Not really looking forward to it, but what can you do?

~a

Again, not dead...

I just feel like I don't have lots and lots to say.

Weightloss? What's that?

I did step on the scale the other day and scared myself. But yet, I am not doing much to reverse the situation.

Well, let me step back a little. I saw the scary number on the scale, and started counting points again, and doing small amounts of exercise (30 min on the NordicTrack, 3-mile run...) And I was hungry - no lie - for two days straight. I HATE feeling hungry. And it's not like I was eating crap with no substance. And I was snacking on raw veggies and fruit. So, the counting, again, got thrown out the window.

Hi. My name is Anneke. And I have no enthusiasm for the whole weightloss thing right now.

It's also kind of weird, as we have been told at work that there is no overnight travel until the end of the year. As I kept telling people this weekend, I have been at home for the last three weeks, and I am not sure what to do with myself. I will have to say, I have done a lot of stuff in the kitchen, putting together veggie dishes, soups, appetizers, banana bread, and using up all of the space in the freezer, and utilizing pretty much all of the veggies from my farm share.

I have the healty food to eat, I just have to cut out the ice cream, and pie, and brownies, and candy.

Yesterday and today are days of cleaning. In some ways I am avoiding my work computer and the information I need to put together for meetings next week. But it needed to get done. I have cleaned the bathroom (including taking a old toothbrush to the faucet to remove the crud around the bottom) Cleaned, vacuumed, dusted, swiffered the bedroom, office, hallway (dusted the pictures...) and living room, and vacuumed the cat hair off the couches. Brought 3 bags of clothing to Goodwill. Put up some pictures in the guest bedroom that have been on a shelf in a closet since we moved (over three years ago).

Eric has been doing good too with trying to get things straightened/organized. He watched the Oprah show about the hoarding, and came to realize that he is doing some of that... and he has actually made an effort to get some of the halfway finished projects done, and get tools and other materials into a real storage area. I keep telling him if he gets things put away, he will be able to find them later. I think he might have reaized that this is actually pretty true, and he needs to do a better job.

Although some of that might be that I have been home and keep bugging him to get some stuff done.

Anyway, It has been a nice Thanksgiving - it was fairly relaxing, got plenty of rest. And the house is cleaner than it has been in months.

Perhaps I will get in more exercise next week. Can't have everything all at the same time, can we?

~a

Nesting

I feel kind of in that mode right now.

I want to get the house/garage/basement in order. I live with a man who's idea of comfortable is a bit different than mine.

Namely: Clutter is just fine.

Okay, he just looked over my shoulder and asked "What's all over?"

My reply: Stuff all over the bedroom, stuff all over the office, stuff all over the dining room table, stuff all over the kitchen counter, stuff all over the coffee table, boxes of crap that are falling apart in the garage...

And then he gets a little pissy.

"um, you asked what I meant..."

"yeah but the list didn't need to be that long!"

"but it is that long!"

I have no plans for this weekend, other than I am scheduled to donate blood on Saturday morning. I hope to get the house cleaned, laundry washed, sheets on the bed changed, and to cook up a bunch of dishes and soups with the veggies from my farm share. Oh, and I want to finish putting the fringe on the afgahn that I am making for some friends of ours that got married in September. Yeah, I know, but of the three weddings we had in three months, I finished two of the afgahns.

I also hope to unearth the oriental rug I have in the garage so I can get it to the cleaner's. I want to put it in the guest bedroom.

Oh, and I am planning on doing some exercise. I have actually NordicTracked twice this week, and I want to continue the streak. I signed up for a 5K that is on the 18th. Not that I am sure I will run the whole thing, but I really like this race. Yeah, won't be getting a PR this time, but that's just fine with me.

Anyway, I think I am going to go find my husband and convince him we need to go to happy hour.

~a

Does he do it on purpose?

I sent my husband to the grocery store last night. With a list. And I also made sure to show him the grocery ad to show him what he needed to buy, and to explain the list.

He didn't listen to me.

I put "Light microwave popcorn" on the list.
He bought:

• Light Kettle Corn
• Movie Butter mini-bags
• Butter popcorn
• Natural Buttery salt and cracked pepper mini-bags (um, yuk...)

I also gave him a coupon for hot pockets. For two. He bought 8, because they were 5 for $10, and he thought he had to buy that many to get the price....

He also bought a spice that we had purchased last time we had been at the grocery store, when we had gone together.

I had given him some cash that should have covered the items on the list, but with all of the stuff he bought extra, he went over, and put it all on a credit card - which I have been telling him NOT to use the credit cards, as I want them PAID OFF so we can concentrate on getting our home equity loan paid down.... "Well, I gave you the cash back...." Minus some money he used because he was short (he's on an allowance, because he overspends, even if he is given limits - another story)

I asked him this morning if he screwed up on purpose, so I wouldn't send him to the grocery store again. He said that it wasn't intentional, but it sounded like a good idea.

I love him, but he just doesn't get it sometimes.

I'm just a bit frustrated with him right now.

Yargh.

~a